In spring 2004, I started studying at the FREE UNIVERSITY OF BERLIN.

I studied musicology, comparative musicology (WELTMUSIK) and political science, was a tour guide for youth tours, waited tables at embassy receptions, planned to start my own band and now started writing somewhat more positive song lyrics.

I met wonderful, great people. Everywhere I went, doors opened for me. At that time I had neither an email address, nor a computer, nor internet access, but a terrific social life. It was the time before the internet boom, when you were free if you left the house without money, mobile phone or ID.

In my political studies, my professors didn’t want to answer my questions after a few semesters, which made me suspect that I wouldn’t learn anything of real importance here. I could have become a politician. Those were the goals of my fellow students, among others. But I wanted to know the truth. To understand the mistakes of world politics and to make peace.

My spiritual awakening became more and more noticeable and the usual career path became more and more impassable for me.

My third eye opened more and more and it became impossible for me to hold on to these crude teachings and erroneous doctrines and beliefs, or to market them as my own, in order to get the very “examination certificates” I needed to complete my studies.

In musicology, especially in comparative musicology (WELTMUSIK), I learned a lot, but I lacked the soft, intuitive approach to music here. We tried to press music into formulas and there was little room for the possibility of extrasensory guidance in composing. The musical systems were in the foreground – Eurocentric views characterised the studies. We interpreted and analysed the works of the masters until the beams were bent. Many of my fellow students were not real musicians themselves and often only knew the music from theory, rarely from the rehearsal room. That was not my world. I wanted to make music. I spent my whole youth on stage and in the rehearsal room.

I am a musician. Composer. Visionary.

For me, EXPERIENCING MUSIC had become the quality of finding truth. For me, an open heart chakra while making music had become more important than a musical stunt by a virtuoso. I knew too many of these severely depressed musicians who painted the darkest colours into the music. Certainly this was an important means of expression for a long time, but I had recognised a grandiose potential of music, and felt it was a waste to use music as emotional therapy when it could be the therapeutic itself, if one only applied the fine-musical laws correctly. But more on that later.

My inner guidance seemed to resist this study tooth and nail.

While studying, I continued to devote myself to my practical courses at the Berlin Music School in Prenzlauer Berg, where I took singing and piano lessons, among other things, since the year 2000. I sang in wonderful choir projects at the music school and also took private lessons in jazz guitar.
Once again, I was shown the massive difference between the style of a music school and the style of a public school – in this case – the Free University of Berlin. There were worlds in the experience.

Unfortunately, my own band project did not progress quite as well. Even with an offer for a new record deal, I had not managed to drum up the necessary musicians for my new band, so I started looking for a band at the same time in 2005 where I could join as a singer.But it soon became apparent that this was not so easy. Everywhere I met guitar-playing singers who were looking for musicians to play their own songs. Find a drummer or bass player in Berlin who doesn’t already play in 3 bands.

I auditioned for at least 10-20 different bands over several years.

I participated in numerous projects here and there, until one day I discovered the advertisement of the Innercity Band in Berlin’s ZITTY-STADTMAGAZIN, to which I applied. I wasn’t really aware what kind of band it was, but somehow the ad appealed to me and I contacted the band – by phone, of course. Shortly afterwards, I started singing as the lead singer in this gala band in 2006.Who would have thought that it would happen so quickly.

So now I am a SELF-CONTINUING PROFESSIONAL MUSICIAN since 2006.

Meanwhile, through my new vibration and resonance, I was drawn to the books of Dr. Joseph Murphy, and through these books discovered other works of classic self-help literature.

My life became more and more beautiful. More and more magical.

This was also the time when I first practised water and juice fasting (book tip). I was rejuvenated and had once again experienced another secret of life.
In 2007, someone who knew me as a singer from the stage offered me a permanent position as a singing teacher in his private music school.And so it came about that from 2007 onwards, I worked full time as a musician and earned my living with music..

Another dream came true

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I soon found it increasingly difficult to get on with my musicology studies. I had a FULLTIME JOB a WEEK at music school, a band on the weekends, band rehearsals, studio dates and a jam-packed schedule with my other music projects.

My interests were the stage, the studio and my new job as a VOCAL-COACH. When, through many honest conversations with musician colleagues, I gradually became aware that as a musician I was already professionally where one usually is only after studying music, I decided to drop out of my studies at the FREE UNIVERSITY at the end of 2008.

I realised that all doors open when you entrust yourself to the guidance of your heart, to the guidance of your life. And it was the best decision of my life so far. I gave myself completely to life.

All or nothing.

From 2006 to 2008 I produced a lightworkers album with 2 friends,

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which, however, has not been released in its entirety until today, due to the break-up of the relationship with my partner at the time, who had been the muse for this album. The drive was killed and my band mates left me standing in front of the shambles of my relationship and the failed project: High Fidelity Berlin.

A dream shattered against reality. I was 27 years old and faced nothing emotionally and musically. Club 27.It felt like life was crucifying me.

I slipped deep into my addictions during this time. Smoked almost 1 pack of cigarettes a day. I smoked pot, drank beer, wine and champagne at our gala appearances. My diet was a disaster. My day and night rhythm was completely broken due to my job as a night porter at the hotel.

Only the memory of my revival experience kept me alive. I breathed the light.I connected with God, continued to practise Qigong and the 7 Tibetans while my soul bled.

I kept asking myself WY?

And so it came about that I stopped drinking alcohol in the summer of 2008. Not one drop more did I want to drink. I stopped smoking and smoking pot to further raise my vibration. I now became a strict vegetarian. For a long time I had been living vegetarian, but every now and then I made an exception when I was in company and there was no vegetarian food. I began to chant mantras.